For
the past couple of years, I've joked about the ghost in my house.
Some
of my friends believe I moved into a 'haunted house' two years ago,
but I sometimes wonder if 'something' didn't simply follow us from
the old house, as we had a few unexplained experiences there also.
I've
always believed in ghosts, spirits, or whatever you want to call
them. Both good and bad.
I also
believe animals can sense these spirits, and saw this first hand one
night a few years ago, when my dog started staring at, then growling
at the old antique rocking chair across the room. She slowly got up
off the couch, and made her way over to the chair, all the while
never losing sight of it, and growling intensely.
At an
empty chair. For no reason.
She
didn't stop when I called her name. She didn't stop when I said,
'Stop! It's OK, Girl!'.
She didn't stop until I physically coaxed her upstairs, away from the
chair.
Something
she didn't like was in that chair.
The
ghosts among us.
Since
being in this new house, I've caught the animals staring intently at
things that weren't there. Or at least not that I couldn't see,
anyway.
I've
had things disappear. Some to reappear in different places, others
to simply vanish, never to be seen again. And no, I don't believe it
was my kids.
I've
heard noises coming from under my bed, and told myself it was simply
the cat, only to realize a minute later that the cat was outside.
I've
had my bed creek and groan, with the weight of someone (or something)
getting on or off, thinking it was the dog, only to look over and
find I'm the only one in the room.
I left
the house one day to run a quick errand. The house was quiet when I
left, but as soon as I got home and got out of the car, I could hear
it. The music blaring inside the house. The only one home was the
dog.
None
of this has really 'scared' me, because I don't think the ghost means
us harm; despite the fact the song that was blaring was 'Bloody Well
Right' (Supertramp). At least it has good taste in music.
And
most recently, I was poked.
I was
alone in the house one night, folding laundry in my room, when all of
a sudden I felt a poke to my back. It was hard enough to make me
jump, and turn around, once again to find out I was completely alone.
Except
for the dog, who was staring at something behind me, that wasn't
there.
I'll
admit, that one kind of freaked me out. Just a little.
I also
believe we have guardian angels, and I've had too many close calls
that should have ended badly, but didn't, for anyone to convince me
otherwise.
I
think for the past 13yrs, one of these guardian angels has been my
father.
July
6th, was the 13th
anniversary of my father's death. And after all these years,
although the pain isn't as searing as it was that day, it still
hurts, and I still miss him.
And I
still think about him. Especially on THAT day.
For
the most part, it was a quiet day this year. Nothing out of the
ordinary.
Until
that evening.
I
couldn't sleep and was on the computer around 2am when all of a
sudden, the music started blaring from my ipod in the kitchen. FULL
blast.
I
jumped up, ran to the kitchen, quickly killed the music by hitting
'pause' on the little monster, and then just stood there for a
second.
Staring
at it.
How …
why … ?
And
then I turned the volume all the way down. Just in case.
And
then stared at it some more.
Then
went back to my room and tried not to think about what had just
happened.
It
remained silent for the rest of the night.
I
listen to my music on a daily basis. The ipod has never
turned itself on at 2am before.
Ever.
And
there's no random 'sleep' or alarm feature on the docking station
which would have done so, either.
I
thought it was strange, but didn't make a connection to my father,
until the next day, while talking about the 'freaky 2am happenings'
with a friend, who pointed out to me that given the day, it might
have been Dad, just saying 'hi'.
And
the more I think about it, the more I tend to agree.
Dad
knew I loved my music, and loved it loud. In the house, car, on foot
with my walkman (you young'uns can google that one) … I always had
my music. Loud.
It was
a great way to get my attention after a day spent missing him.
Just
saying 'hi'.
I like
that.
And if
nothing else, now on his anniversary, I'll think of that 2am music
blast and smile. Just in case it was him.
Because
it's comforting to think he may still be around, looking out for his
little girl.
But
next year, Dad, feel free to say 'hi', without scaring the crap out
of me in the middle of the night.
If it
wasn't Dad … stop messin' with my music, Ghost!
And
bring back that phone book that mysteriously disappeared!
M'kay?
M'kay!
K.